Profanity: also known as swearing, cursing, foul speech, and cussing, is a show of disrespect, a desecration or debasement of someone or something, or the act of expressing intense emotions. Profanity can take the form of words, expressions, gestures, or other social behaviors that are socially constructed or interpreted as insulting, rude, vulgar, obscene, obnoxious, foul, desecrating or other forms.
A casual stroll through the grocery store or shopping mall while dressed in clothes that so elegantly sport one of many four letter words we have become acquainted with over our lifetimes will surely be met by passerby’s with looks of disgust, noses turned towards the sky, and the possible snide comment or two… or three. But, as I walk through the doors of the infusion clinic, a resting place for the battle weary, a gathering place before the coming storm and tortures of modern medicine an amazing scene unfolds. A simple four letter word adressed at our common enemy becomes a battle placard, a symbol of strength and defiance… a flag of pride. The spirit of those around me are visually enlightened, warm color seeps into their pale features that have been hidden from the sun for too long, placid faces slowly become adorned with crooked smiles creeping at the corner of their lips, and blank stares have the hint of new sparkling eyes. It is amazing how powerful words can be when used properly, no… I mean, when used passionately. What is more amazing is the energy received when someone steps up to help fight a common enemy, whether it be through action or words of encouragement. I know My Army and their prayers, thoughts, energies have been a major reason for the success of my treatment so far. Let us take it a step further and stand up as one to support all of those individuals, families, grandfathers, grandmothers, fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews, cousins and friends and tell cancer so righteously off…….
As for a personal update on my current health. My last CEA test shows that my levels decreased even further into the “normal range” at 1.2 (when I was diagnosed it was around 296.) I am currently undergoing my 12th and final cycle of FOLFOX chemotherapy. After this is I will have a two week break (Including an awesome trip to punta cana for my best friend’s wedding) and then have 28 week days straight of radiation combined with a small but week long dosage of 5-Fu chemo. The five to six week long process is supposed to be extremely fatiguing, and filled with some irritating side effects. Regardless, I am ready for this final stretch of my treatment and have never once wavered from my goal of beating this thing…. After almost a year of treatment, the light at the end of the tunnel grows ever closer my friends.
Much Love – Teej
p.s. check out my new ink, tatted up like no other… Hope the color doesn’t fade and ruin it.
And yes for those who don’t get it, it’s the tiny little blue dot on the side of one “cheek” lol. I have three of them and they are used for lining up the radiation.
p.p.s. If you want the shirt: http://www.cafepress.com/+fuck_cancer_white_tshirt,4362338